This is a thinking-space for my curiosity. It is a collection of essays, research, and artwork where I unpack the ideas that shape my perspective—from the mechanics of the human mind to the challenges of the digital age.
These entries are personal snapshots. They represent a search for understanding rather than a declaration of absolute truth. By integrating visual art with writing on science, psychology, and philosophy, this site documents an active engagement with the world. I encourage you to use these ideas not as final answers, but as starting points for your own inquiry.
The Black Flamingo: “Et in Arcadia ego”
I've been listening to the new album from Sleep Token on repeat.
Behind the masks and the grand mythology, I found a single, devastatingly honest confession. This is my personal interpretation of the album, focusing on the human pain beneath the persona.
From AI Burnout to Beksiński: A Report on the Art of Feeling
Why do we make art? After burning out on the sterile, hypothetical world of AI, I found my answer in the dark, melancholy paintings of Zdzisław Beksiński. A report on his art, his craft, and the powerful lesson that art isn't meant to be explained—it's meant to be felt.
Part 2: Berlin and the Unbroken Framework
A post-trip reflection on the framework put to the test. This post documents the week in Berlin, confirming the initial hypothesis while uncovering deeper reasons for the disconnect—including the gallery environment itself—and finding connection not in observation, but at the crossroads of a shared idea.
Part 1: Why I Don't Like Looking at Art: Before Berlin
A pre-trip self-analysis exploring a paradox: what does it mean to be an art student who loves to create art, but feels a profound disconnect when looking at it? This is an attempt to build a framework for that experience before testing it in the galleries of Berlin.
Art and Aphantasia
How can a visual artist create without a mind's eye? This post is a deep dive into my experience with total aphantasia—the inability to form any mental imagery or other sensory experiences. I explore how this condition shapes an artistic process based not on visualization, but on intuition, discovery, and a constant dialogue with the physical work.
On Consciousness: Three Poems
A look at some recurring themes through a different medium. This post shares three poems I've made that, despite being created at different times, all seem to grapple with the same idea: the nature of consciousness, from the self in isolation to our place in the universe.